Bro from where are you getting these much amount of usdts, like litreally bro what is your profession

The account hasn't been open for a month, and I've lost 200 million.. I've paid half a billion in fees, and I want to withdraw from the market, but I've lost everything.. It's so miserable... At this point, the people I'm most sorry for are my family.. I feel like I never do anything right, I've lost money, and only now do I realize I'm overestimating my abilities, not suitable for this, nor suitable for that, but I still can't accept it.. I want to keep gambling, but I'm afraid of continuing to lose.. Ah!! What should I do?
(Recently, it seems like this is the same old story)