I have never dared to write this piece because the experiences of the past year have truly made me want to escape.
The decline trend at the beginning of 2025 took away my faith in the bull market and the numbers in my account. When I got up that day and saw that cold red -100%, my first reaction was that I hadn't woken up and my eyes were blurry....
It took away not only some numbers but also my trading confidence and personal self-esteem. So I began to doubt myself, gradually lost my sense of self, kept sinking deeper, and started to hate #ETH $ETH ...
Human beings are often exceptionally fragile at certain moments. For example, in the two months after 2.3, I lost love and my mental support again. Fortunately, this isn't the first time I've experienced these... otherwise, it would really take a long time to truly move on~
Fortunately, the margin for error in life is surprisingly large.
It was also because of a friend's words that I regained my confidence, searching for that 'right' self. I traveled to some places, saw the beauty of this world, and began to understand the meaning of my life. I don’t need to care about others' opinions, just live my own life well and enjoy everything that life brings: joy, anger, sorrow, and happiness.
I, only I, can truly feel my inner self; no one else can. So I decided to be that person who follows their own heart more freely and emotionally in this life, 'love what I love, and love me.'
Throughout the first half of the year, my emotional journey took dozens of big detours. In fact, when things are going smoothly, there aren’t many emotional paths; there are only more thoughts. It's the setbacks that weigh on the heart, leading to guilt and internal conflict.
Entering the second half of the year, I finally began to truly recover many things: my self-confidence, my thoughts, and even my patience for life...
I often feel that I am an extremely lucky person, not because everything goes smoothly, but because I have encountered so many good people and things. There are help, trust, understanding, companionship, patience, as well as love and hate. They heal me with many small moments and give me strength.
After going through so much, I am more certain that life is not just about work, nor just about trading. Life requires a variety of experiences; life is meant to be experienced. If I could have everything, then I also need the courage to let go of everything.
It's like encountering difficulties in life; can I hold on and find a place to sit for a while, enjoy the breeze, and let everything calm down?
It's like encountering losses in trading; can I act according to the plan, can I honestly face my mistakes, can I allow myself to be ordinary?
And those people: some are willing to watch me analyze various market trends and silently give me a thumbs up; some are willing to remind and comfort me after my losses, helping me review and summarize; some are willing to spend time listening to my live broadcasts and my ramblings...
Thank you all!
I will remember that even when I misjudge the direction and make a wrong trade, no one blamed me. Instead, there was comfort, encouragement, and reminders. This kindness is my source of motivation to keep moving forward.
2026! Keep going!!!