I was so excited when I started my crypto journey. I spent hours watching YouTube videos, seeing people making money online. I created my account and, after learning how to read charts and watch the market, I finally started trading for real. At first, it felt like riding a tiny boat in the middle of an ocean, battling stormy waves. I blew up my account so many times I lost count. Every loss felt like the sea itself was testing me.
But then, after so many trades and mistakes, the right moment came. I made my first $500. I still remember the joy — I showed my friends, the same friends who laughed when I started. Suddenly, they wanted me to teach them how to trade. That moment felt perfect. I truly felt alive, confident, and joyful. For a while, everything seemed to fall into place.
Then came the crash on October 10th. I was long on two trades with minimum amounts, but the market dropped so fast and hard that my entire portfolio was wiped out in a single night. It was during the tariffs war, and the scale of the crash was something I had never imagined. I was sad, frustrated, and mad, but I had only myself to blame. No one else.
Handling that loss was incredibly hard. I couldn’t share my mental struggle with anyone. And the same friends who had once laughed at my excitement now laughed even harder. It was cruel in a way — almost like they were counting their joy at my pain to feel equal to me. I realized I had to maintain distance from them. I was disappointed — disappointed in the market, in my own mistakes, and in the people I thought I could trust.
And now, here I am. Still learning. Still struggling with trades. Still hoping that one day everything will go right — exactly as I dreamed, exactly what I deserve. Every win and every loss has taught me something about patience, discipline, and understanding the market.
This is my story — how I started, how I fell, and how I keep going. Crypto has been a stormy journey, but it’s mine, and every step has shaped me into the trader I am becoming. I hope sharing this gives a little insight into the real side of trading — the highs, the lows, and the lessons that come with it.